Addiction

April 13, 2009

I know it’s bad, but I can’t help it but to tolerate my growing addiction. 

 The weather is blazing hot in the morning, but a little cold in the evening. My plan was to trim myself even just a little bit since it’s the best way to lose way. I started limiting my food intakr znd start jogging around the park, but how pathetic I could get that I can’t missed going online for my growing addiction. It ends that I’m always infront of the computer, seated for hours.

One was the application in Facebook called Farm Town. You plant, harvest the crops plus grow trees and add some farm animals while decorating it with different stuffs you can find in a good, ol’ farm. It’s so addicting is that it’s makes you want to earn more to grow more your farm. If I could only stay in front of the computer 24X7, I will, just for the sake.

I started watching movies and series online since it’s accessible. No need to be infront of the television set. 

Since I am at work in the evening, I tend to miss SNN.  I am a confessed showbuzzer and it’s my only favorite, updated show in the evening. I sometimes cannot stand watch long running series, but if it’s interesting, why not. For the past several days, I only keep myself updated online. Thanks for some kind hearted people who always find a way on uploading those must-see programs by people like me. It’s just a click away if I miss it.

I found a website that must be hitting a fortune from me since I tend to go each time I want to watch an ABS-CBN program. From series, to movies and even concerts are uploaded and updated everyday. I have watched A Very Special Love a while ago which do not cost me to buy a copy, unlike why I always do. I am lazy to download things and I rather wait for it to load online because I have long patience with it. It’s really a warmth feel movie.

My niece has a game application on this computer which got me addictive too entitled Little Treasure Shop. The instructions would require you to find the things that is being describe on a messy shop with a limited time. It’s like a mind game as well as I tend to identify and find for some of the familiar and not-so familiar things I encounter.  From scarpbooks things, to food, electronic gadgets, to carpenter tools. It’s also my first time to encounter some of the weirded things which I never thougt would exist.

Lastly, the TV series Hana Yori Dango/Boys Before Flowers. My sister is so hooked and me as well as I’ve watched one episode from the KBS Channel. Thanks to http://www.dapeke.com for posting the complete episode. I just simply click the link away and indulge myself away in watching it.

 

 

 

The other day, I learned that I have this attitude to tend to over analyze things that’s going on around me. I presume and I assume and made plans in impulse that when it’s over, I just simply nod if off and try to forget it happen. I think I am weird, thinking that way. What’s the weirdest about it is that I cry a lot, which is not the usual me. Sometimes, I think I am on the borderline of a disease they called bipolar.

 

 

Ang Weird Ko

April 3, 2009

With just a simple gesture or appreciation, a negative mood can turn into a vibrant one.

 I’ve been stressing with a lot of  things since the past few weeks and all I want to do is not to think about it. Things which could not really be issues are coming almost at the same time and they are getting worse and worse everyday.

I have so many things that I need to do but could not because of certain limitations. I take one at time, the first that needs to be deal with and leave the other which are less prioritize.

My sister is planning to enroll summer classes since it’s a priority to there school which I’ll shoulder and is equivalent to one semester fee. It’s so hard since I’ve been planning to spend my earnings to fix my computer and buy a new cellphone for myself, plus I’ll go out for a vacation with my friends. I’ve been planning to go to a trip to Davao, but I’ve been putting it on hold since I need to pay attention to what I should need to deal with.

My mother will undergo an eye surgery as soon as possible. Eveything has been taking care except for the lens that needs to be surgically implanted to her eyes. We would not pay any medical fees, but only for the lenses which cost not really that much, but would be impossible for me to save since I shoulder my sister school expenses.

I know that money problems are just every day problems that one person regularly deals with. For the past few days, I’ve been contemplating on how I am as a person in terms of skills and achievement. I am no achiever, I nothing to brag about in terms of my skills. I rather spend most of my time slacking than do what needs to be done. I reached this age without taking my life seriously but not leaving my responsibilities. This age should be the time for settling down, be serious and think things over, but I think I am still immature for that.

I am almost close to being despair but will take things normally. Just a simple appreciation with what I do would mean a lot to me. I realize that I am that kind of person when simple favors are done for me. Three of them happen today.

I came to the office 5 minutes before my shift when I suddenly realize that I forgot my ID. I cannot go inside and the receptionist at the front desk was no big help. I went home to get it and go back to office again. I was really touched that my sister follow my instructions to meet me downstairs to give to me my ID.

The second was when I was commended for my expertise with my work. I know that I am not that good in work that much, but I surely felt proud when it was acknowledge. I am more positive with my work now and look forward on how could I do better.

The last but definitely the most remarkable is that I was able to talk to talk to the person whom I considered being precious to my life. He’s still far away, in Germany and we talk about on when he was going home. That really made me jump for joy.